Every time I open Twitter, the latest update on my home page is a friend’s tweet about her insecurity. Not only once or twice, but it’s also been more than a year I see that kind of tweet from her. I’ve ever tried to talk to her, but there is no result. It reminds me of a Japanese serial titled “Kakafukaka” I’ve watched before. In that serial, the main character has low self-esteem, she always lowered herself in front of others by saying, “I am useless”, “I am jobless”, “I don’t have anything”, “I don’t deserve to be here”, until one day, her friend is annoyed by the main character who always show off her low self-esteem. The pattern is similar to most of us who usually praising others firstly and then blaming our self because we are not like them.
Most of the human has their insecurity. We usually get lost our confidence when we have struggled with our best for something, but the result is not as our expectation. For example, after graduation, our expectation is “a scholar from the university will get a job easier”. We have struggled for months, but we don’t get any job, we can’t reach the expectation. In the end, we blame our self, we ask, “what’s wrong with me? Why don’t I get any job even I am a scholar now?”. The signs of confidence begin to decline, and it decreases more day by day.
In Kakafukaka serial, the confidence analogous to the “price of goods”. The shop sells goods at a high price, with the expectation that people will buy the goods at that high price. But when people come to the shop and not buying the product at a high price, the shop is not confident anymore. Afterward, the shop put the discount tag on the goods so that people buy it. It is the same with us, we have a high expectation of your self among other people, but when we don’t reach the expectation, we finally labeled our self with the low price tag.
Sometimes we put the low price tag in order to do the big sale, whereas we have sincerely sold the goods at a low price. Whereas we have sincerely with our limitation and we make the restlessness as our dark jokes. DARK JOKES, a darkness that we finally found its light to make people laugh.
But if we don’t want to do the big sale yet, we don’t need to put the price low tag on our self. Why?
- People don’t care about the price tag of the product they don’t want to buy. People don’t care about our price tag if they don’t have any intention of us, we don’t need to expose it.
- People might not judge us as we judge our self.
- Our self is our own product, we can always negotiate with the low self-esteem and put the price tag that we want to. Low self-esteem should be a discretion for us and not the limitation that finally limits us to do one and other things among other people.
Good luck!
